Stop mindlessly clicking. Because I'm talking to you right Now.
You are playing below your means. You are playing a game that is ok. It's respectable. People will say you are doing great.
But late at night when you are alone you get mad. Mad at where you are. Mad at where you thought you should be. Overwhelmed because you think you are behind.
The problem is you are just a little mad. Not mad enough though. Not pissed off enough at your current situation to take a big action. To buckle down and work.
Dull pain is the worst pain. It's painful but you can live with it until it eventually breaks your soul and mind.
You have to realize that anger and frustration, when channelled correctly, can be your greatest friend.
Think about a time you were crazy mad and got into a rage. Maybe you were in a physical fight and you were kicking and screaming like a beast. Imagine if you had that kind of intensity but was focused on a goal that you wanted to tear through.
Get pissed off at your current situation and make a change. Realize if you are not much better off than you were 5 years ago, unless you change, the next 5 years will be the same. And you will hate yourself.
There is never a better time to start than right now. Your self in 5 years will thank you. But you gotta get mad right now. Mad with focus.