I have an intense fear of settling and playing under my potential. I realize how easy it is to get comfortable selling one's self short in life.
You get into patterns and think "this" is what life is.
You have to be jolted from that mindset through various means.
I find for myself, it's usually being in the company of people who are crushing it at a level way beyond where I currently am yet I still feel it's within my grasp.
Seeing people achieving greatness kicks me in the arse. Hearing how they did it makes feel grateful. I've been fortunate enough to learn from some of the greatest minds.
If someone shares info with me, I owe it to them to apply it to change my life. Not letting them down drives me.
I hate taking a 10,000 foot view of my life and realizing I'm playing below my potential. Way below it. This dark energy drives me as much as the sunshine and rainbow stuff does. Sometimes more. Learning how to harness one's dark side can give you an amazing edge in life.
I no longer wish to run from my dark side. I want it, and my good side to drive me toward my goals. Like two streams of water becoming one more powerful one.
I get really F*ing pissed off at playing below my potential. I hate it. It disgusts me.